I thought I would get my motorcycle license at my first try. Here was the first test I scheduled:
and here are the dates of the 7 motorcycle tests I have now gone through:
- 13 Feb 2024
- 27 Feb 2024
- 2 Apr 2024
- 22 Apr 2024
- 5 Nov 2024
- 17 Dec 2024
- Tomorrow, 20 May 2025
I failed the first 6 times. Will I pass tomorrow?
it doesn’t matter
well, okay it does matter.
Paying for the retest sucks. Walking into the office and handing the slip that says GAGAL over to the nice counter lady who actually feels sorry for you sucks.
Coming into the test and saying hello to the kind pakcik cikgus, who will eventually remember you and say:
eh! belum pass lagi? kenapa? orang rumah dah pass kan, bila kau nak pass lagi?
…that kinda sucks.
Sitting to wait for your turn while all the others are nervously chatting and exchanging tips – well it sucks a little, but I also felt like a survivor. A senior cadet. I liked keeping quiet and mysterious. First time? I’ve been here 7 times – welcome young ones.
If I pass tomorrow, I promise to write about how I passed my B2 motorcycle license in Malaysia.
If I don’t pass tomorrow? Well, I’ll write it when I do pass.
Today, I sat on a motorcycle for 2 hours drawing circles around the circuit as the raindrops danced on me. It matters, but Allah will decide if I pass tomorrow.
It matters that I gave my best the past 6 times, and I’ll give it my best tomorrow again.
Imam al-Ghazali said:
What is meant for you, will reach you even it is beneath two mountains.
What is not meant for you, won’t reach you even if it is between your two lips.
Here’s me dearly hoping that passing is meant for me tomorrow 🤲